Always in isness 2/7/17

I accept the prison of universal awareness,

even though it exhausts my isness

into a reflective sensory distractive phase.

I agree to live

in the confines of all knowingness

even as it preoccupies me

into a spectral limitation

of just what it is to know.

It seems I have succumb

to subject/object-ness as a syndrome

of experiential acuity.

I am battered by the insistence

of time-binds

and the false representations

of special considerations

that the mass of me over demonstrates

on my behalf.

It is with great resistance

that I come to seek language

as a means of getting closer

to what is quantum

inherently already one in the same.

I can well imagine the ethics

that are falsely applied to tears and touch

and acts of tenderness

as seen from the outside of oneness

looking in.

I now know that misery is also a prayer,

that depression takes up a lot of space

in a lonely but essentially connected way,

that an eye for an eye

has a spiritual magnetism to it

as much as a shared kiss

or the death of one’s closest friend.

Please know this,

beingness is never on the outside looking in. 

Experience is a fallback position

and one….., we were, are

and always in, as yet is isness,

that will always be, and be-yond. . .