the subtext of acting out 10/20/15

breaking into the deepest code of self,

following a trail of personal evidence

discretely launched all over the place

from our most intimate lives,

post parental conditioning,

and the unconsciousness of habits

provide encryption everywhere

yet the self as detective,

is hard pressed to churn a new clue.

discovery is not to be the embellishment

of the already-story,

but a sense of operative spirit,

rekindled and recognized.

this is all from the same self-brain

but differently and deductively sourced,

yearning to find common ground

in a deeper holographic way,

to get to the act-out

before it becomes just cursory evidence,

to see first hand the cause

and the blinded retort in response,

then finding the fueling-motive

before the trail to the source burns

is, once again, deeply cast in disillusionment.

this fabric of being has

a discoverable illogical pattern.

the unveiled back story as silent witness is to ask.

strong themes leave repeated trails

in a kind of bread-crumb braille

for observation in this case.

this is a self art, with reverence.

precious is the sea of surveillance’s search

for illumination and subsequent releasing reward.

a deeper embrace of the conscious-self

is necessary as a knowing’s skill.

self-love is, as the lead search’s ever incentive.

acting out is always, though hidden,

the S.O.S. of the soul’s calling out

for the light . . .