four ransoms of aloneness

In aloneness, what is,

appears in only “relatively dark”,

is only temporally bleak,

is only grim in passing,

is an offering but small change.

Only what notice can provide,

is as admittance to a greater truth,

is of a coping means

that offers first light,

that relative dark

did not originally reveal

as already in the mix.

The four ransoms of aloneness are:

disappointment, as the unsaid-ness

of a life style,

expectation, as it futures ‘now’

into the review phase,

experience, as it offers sips

for details of embellishment,

and time, as it father-figures

all the weary oppression inside.

In this continuum of aloneness

is where the disappointment

from expectation is directly proportional

to the expectation of disappointment,

as the time of experience

is to the experience of time.

Here in the living-ness of this continuum

there are four infatuations:

we all succumb,

we tend to survive,

we resist surrender,

and we somehow endure.

Aloneness believes

that it bathes in itself

yet the ever-now

is given to evaporative means

and then is the never-more.

Living aloneness has its destiny:

the four ransoms continue to exist,

and the now is,

yet always in passing,

contextuality like this is

is never the measure of being . . .