Channeling ourselves (re-post)

I have always used thinking

to check in and get answers

somehow

every time

there is a breath pause

sometimes

the eyes shift orientation

and I sense

a conclusion

some interior sky

and relevant answers appear

almost immediately

representing circumstance

or issues

or impressions

linking things

in a loose edit

of internal ongoings

as a sanity clause

of self-administered interpretation

oh I watch this process

almost helpless to intervene

there is such a momentum built-in

though I come at it

if from different levels inside

avoiding the front screen stampede

face on

investing

in other self-reflective perspectives

what if no answer mattered

as an answer?

as if all answers were innocuous

by their very nature

they are only results

in the form of views of the past

things that I can do nothing about

in the now

yet duly noted

in a grateful manner

as passing

but . . .

what if now were constructed

in a more proactive manner?

what could I be

by being creatively present

empty

of a preemptive trivia agenda

but available

with spontaneous presence

in passage

rather than harnessing

response potential

as if permission were given

for each second forward

and empty risk

was the only creative option

available?

not to diminish

what is also taken as ongoing

but just to be

more consciously aware

that those two levels

function simultaneously

yet independently:

senses intake and spirit output

it all starts

as a paradoxical pretend

the original training

is quite the opposite:

the senses overwhelm

while the spirit is subdued

the breath pause is now

as a permission

to initiate spirit out right

to flood the playing field

with breath expression

acknowledgment

several levels all at once

awareness redefined

maybe

it was always this way

before we stopped channeling

the spirits

of ourselves